The definition of beauty was taught to me through some standards of perfection. My inner child would say "pretty" was the only beautiful. This inner child of mine knew it required effort to be beautiful. This little inner girl said with conviction "being YOU couldn't be possibly be beautiful enough."
After years of reframing this thought process my inner child had a perspective that is no longer topic to my psyche. Just when I think it is all safe to say that among all the lessons of beauty I have learned along my journey....this lesson just doesn't work for me. The universe throws one more lesson.
Years ago a near fatal accident included numerous injuries. One being facial trauma. My cranial nerve 3, 5, and 7 were damaged. I had sustained partial facial paralysis on the right side of my face due to my he damage of cranial nerve 7. The doctors told me I wasn't supposed to heal from various injuries including my facial trauma. Damaged nerves are so delicate and complex it is challenging for them to heal. After I was discharged from the ICU I utilized my skills to heal. Beauty was the last thing on my mind! I wanted to get through one day without struggling with my facial function, etc.
I was warned by the lead neurosurgeon my healing journey had psychological and physical hurdles. Despite my doctors at the ICU and some of the best doctors in the surrounding area, and the world my facial trauma showed signs of healing a few months after being discharged. I continued to regain my facial function etc. My healing deepened my appreciation of beauty. It has caused me to peel back an unexpected layer of beauty I had never experienced before.
The essential facial abilities we take for granted on a daily basis were compromised. From gargling your mouthwash without it falling out of the side of my mouth to being able to fit my lips around a straw to drink out of. Still I did not get discouraged. I was grateful to be alive. I trusted my spiritual gifts and holistic knowledge. Every day, all day I honored what my body communicated to me. In November, 2024 almost 8 years later… I have healed all my near fatal injuries. Naturally, nerve damage was unlikely to heal so it is still healing. I am grateful after years of healing I almost can use the full capacity of my face. True beauty is inner peace and love. Without it I don’t believe I would have healed.
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